Change. It isn't that hard.

I don't want this.
I made mistakes.
I am human.
I am only wanting,
a second chance

I am a new man here
A new soul
A fresh slate

A blank canvas

A malleable metal

What more.

Can't you judge me for yourself?
What  silliness,
Can't you see beyond the veil?

Truth be told
I have told lies
But
Is it truthfully told
That my lies were lies?

I will let you all see that I have changed. 

That I have severed the ties with my past.
That I have risen beyond the likes of scum.
That I have seen the error of my ways
That maybe one day I can say one of the hardest words

Sorry.
Sorry for all the things I have done
Sorry for all the hearts I kept
Sorry for all the lies I told
Sorry for who I was
Sorry Ya-Allah
Sorry.

A shoutout

A dedication

A point to change

A promise to myself

Amir Farid Aminuddin

A.F. Aminuddin

-The Lame Novelist

Patience, Child.

THE EXAMS ARE COMING OMGOMGOMG
I HAVENT STUDIED
I HAVENT DONE MY WORK
I NEED TO BLABLABLA

وَاصْبِرُوا ۚ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ

And be patient. Surely, Allah is with those who are patient. (8:46)

Take a chill pill bros (and sisters). Allah is always there for us.

do your work slowly but surely.

learn as it comes to you

work towards your goals.

need not fear what comes soon after

Surely enough we will hesitate and panic.

In fact we end up so nervous we end up lost.

I myself am no different,

but at times like this it is good to be reminded :)

Just a poke at myself before I resume my studies ~.~
*finals on monday ngeeeee*
ciao and to my batch here in Indonesia

lets hope we all get through simple and clean :D

far far away

and here i see the value of staying steady and to not rush into things.
i see everyone trying waaaay to hard to achieve things in such a short time. i guess looking back, i can laugh and say i can't believe i was like that. here in makassar i am finally starting to change. *for the better thankfully*

For far too long

It has been a while since i have even set foot on blogger. (by a while i mean ages)

god. times have been a bit busy.

here i am in makassar wishing that everything ends quickly. all my work settling down

and for me? a chance to relax, reflect, and redirect all this pent up frustration.

Anywho, things here are just fine. well essentially. too much drama for my taste.

confrontations here and there

people complaining about work and all that when they dont see that others may have more work.

heh. people and their perception of 'busy' yet,

girlfriends and couples and scandals (what have you) popping up here and there.

i understand such earthly pursuits are fun, but time has definitely showed me the better side of life.

heck i admit, even i am still interested in finding that perfect one. but as i have managed to obtain here...

we start developing ourselves before we go looking for others. are you sure you can handle a woman when you yourself is unaware of your standing with god? (whatever your religion may be i am sure this holds firm)

heh same old amir here, perhaps just shown the right path

people may say i have changed since i have set foot on makassar

perhaps i have

but i would say it is definitely for the better

if you guys arent happy about it, then i hope you will get it as time passes us all.

and a word to those people out there that talk about me behind my back.
i forgive you guys. perhaps you should realize one thing
it's no wonder i tend to put on those earphones and shut myself from this world

at times, ignorance really is bliss